I feel like im stuck between two ages of maturity, there are a few of my friends, who are still childish teenagers, taking the piss out of people etc, and i do this too, but when i see them do it with there little in jokes and gestures, it makes them look so sad!
Then there are my friends who have “moved on” as it were to “bigger and better” things! These people no longer have the time for me, is this because they are more mature? i don’t know!

I don’t know how other people perceive me and my maturity, but i’d like to think i wasnt that imature! i mean i have my moments, who doesnt!

Still, who knows!

random thought of the day - The pendulum songs side to side, but never front to back!

lol!

Since i left Liverpool things have gotten stranger for me than ever! Ive been so down lately. Me and My gf split up! Ive been missing my friends from liverpool. No one is home yet that i want to spend laods of time with except the odd one who dont have the time to spend with me!
Ive been working as much as possible to earn money for next month when i go to Portugal! Something i am soo looking forward to! i dont even know how much money i am going to need to have a really good time there!

oh well!
xXx

I know it seems weird or perhaps rude, maybe it even takes something away from what sophie is doing, but i have decided to do my own 365 project!
This means i have to get a new photo up each day before midnight!
Im going to do it so that its 1 day is a picture of me, the next of someone else and the next of an object or building, ofcourse it wont matter of the order just so long as i dont have two of myself next to each other etc!

My first picture will be up by midnight tonight!

xXx

I am in such a mood right now!

At several people in particular! I had an arguement with a flat mate and i expect a few more to come! I find out a certain someone thinks im gonna make a move on friday but its ok coz “they wont let it happen” COCK SUCKER! and also i dunno i am just in a mood! I fell my life is shit and im 19 tomorrow! I need to sort some stuff out before my time as a child (yes I include 18 as a child) ends!

Night

Well its been a while since i posted so here i go.

I think i wil start with a mention to a good friend of mine Tassha. My good friend who is only 19 years old died last week. She was Cremated on Tuesday of this week. She was an amazing person who cared for everything whole heartedly. I was lucky to be considered a good friend of hers. You will be missed Tassh!

 Right, moving on to my Skins style lifestyle (yeah right, at least i like to think this). Since the begining of the year i have been drunk about (does maths) times maybe more maybe less. Out of those about 5 were off myhead pissed. 

Just before Christmas i was With a good friend Jannine and other such as Chris. WE were in the gay village in manchester where we decided to take some pills, i only took one and was quite fooked on it. But i was ok still. Since then i have pilled up quite a few times and last night was the worst/best worst in the fact my come down was aweful and best because it was a great feeling before the come down. (oh and the throwing up was unpleasant). Me and my flat mate Becca have been getting stoned on a regular basis. Ive been using it mostly to numb a lot of bad feelings.

I have had the shittest 2 weeks. Tassha, then Charlotte im sure is either sleeping with someone else or is at least thinking about it. Basically its been depressing. One of my other flat mates also, is being a right bitch i really cant hack much of her!

As for my Uni work, ive done sweet f all! On t

Im off to do some work soon at the library! grrr how i hate work so!

Am going home at the end of this week which means a whole month of Photoshop! w00t i bet i have lost my talent lol! oh well lol!
I am looking forward to chirstmas… are you? hehe!

I got one essay done yesterday so im looking more positive at the moment :D fingers crossed the rest can be done :D

grr i still hate work though lol!

 

peace!

 

ps. Listening to: Massive atack: What your soal sings

I just got myself a new face book after friends nagging, and now im feeding my blog directly there so people can access it there too lol. Im actually posting this on my blog not my facebook.

Im so bored these days, nout much to do in the days:(

 

help!

Money is the devils play thing i swear! that and Coursework. I guess i only have myself to blame though lol, i mean i didnt have to spend as much money as i have done and yet again my mum is bailing me out… gotta love that woman. I am so behind in my work its like trying to lift a 500 pound weight and keep it above my head, one more thing and im gonna be crushed i swear. then agian i have akways managed to pull cswk out of my ass at the last minute so heres to hoping. My blog has been so dead of late but hopefully im gonna revive it and get people to start blogging them selves :D so happy blogging all :D

The life of a university student so far has been interesting, there is the all night drinking, the drinking every night, meeting new people, forming new friendships and gaining new rivals. The most daunting aspect of all this is having moved to a new city, where do I go and what do I do now that I don’t know the place or people. Luckily for me that feeling didn’t last too long as I now have a good friend base and I am learning all the best places to go out in this city. My first night in the city, I brought along my best friend Adam, we went out with many of my new flat mates and had a great town in what I thought was a nice club called Mood, it was later that I found out it was a chavish bar. That night Adam was taking too long to leave the club so I left him with my capable new flat mates and left to go home with 2 others. An hour later Adam turns up at the flats with a bloody nose, turns out he had been chanting Manchester united football songs, which in Liverpool is not the best of idea’s. This made got me thinking, can myself, a guy from south Manchester really fit in, in Manchester’s biggest rival Liverpool?

Luckily my fears were quelled the next night when I went out with some flat mates (leaving Adam in the flat, I think he was too scared to face the big city again), that night was the night that I realised… this is my new home.

Now two weeks on I am starting to feel like ive been here ages, granted I miss my home and my friends and I will always be a stopfordian, but after you bring a cone to your flat you know youre really here! Last night I went to a club simply known as the Krazyhouse, I had heard many good things about this place, so I thought I should check it out. We arrived there and right away I knew I would like it, good music, three floors, many bars, lots of attractive people who were finally my type, I had found my fish bowl and these were my fellow fish.

The night after the events at krazyhouse we decided to explore the gay area of Liverpool, granted it was a sunday but we didnt expect it to be so quiet. Perhaps if we went on a different night it would have been bigger! We did however find a great little club called G-Bar (how original) and enjoyed ourselves in there. Me being me manged to pull a rather attractive guy, my first pull in liverpool and its a guy, not for lack of trying to pull a girl that is.

Yesterday was an interesting one, i spent a lovely day with my flat mate Lizzy and we went around town, shopped and spent a nice afternoon in the Walker art Gallery, something im not really used to but it was a nice way to educate myself in culture. We went home and started to get ready for the steadily anticipated presidents pub crawl. Part of our preperations was to make cocktails, i began with the pinapple, but stupidly… i put a wooden spoon in and nearly blew everything up, suffice to say we gave up on the cocktails. We met all at half 5 outside the Sudents Union Bar then set off on our hours of drinking fun. Come midnight i was ready to pack it in, but unfortunatly i had to work at 2AM for the SU doing some flyering. We did this and came straight home to bed where at half 10 this morning i got a loud annoying awakening from the fire alarm test… hows your week been?

In Liverpool Starts officialy next tuesday (the 12th) and im really looking forward to it, but i am also really nervous about it, not to mention sad about leaving this life. I am leaving so much behind, my sister and brother, my friends, Peggy and so much more. But now i have contacts in Leeds, Sheffield, Chester, Manchester and so many more places (even one in oxford) so its a good way of networking lol!

I cant wait for liverpool, its going to be amazing methinks, lots of drinking and working, i like the saying work hard, play hard. I know its not the lvierpool john moores slogan but meh ;)

Met (well sorta not yet lol) a realyl cool person called Amy. We are gonna try for the student raidio station and they emailed back, so they seemed interested :D

Biggest other new thing in my life at the moment is Chris, he is an amazing guy i met at Pride and i think he is top doller i really do :D

 

anyways i should get back to “packing” my room lol!

 

peace!

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